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[Logs: Link 1, Link 2.]

[Since her duel with Juudai three months, Alex has been unconscious and hospitalized. The official story is that she assaulted multiple representatives of SAI and DA students en route to a planned attack on a group of extradimensional beings. She was stopped by a representative of SAI and has been in police custody since.

Those who asked Juudai, Yuma, Yuya or Galaxy-Eyes for info would learn the following:
- She was trying to go back to the Astral World to destroy Eliphas.
- She was using power she gained from a demon from the Warp.
- The demon appeared when Juudai beat her in a duel. It then took Alex's life energy and left.
- Galaxy-Eyes has attempted to transfer her life energy, but it hasn't worked. She hasn't woken back up, no matter what Galaxy-Eyes has tried and she's tried a lot over the past three months.

She's asleep in the hospital. By this point, most of the time, there's a woman in the room with her. If you visit Alexandra on any kind of regular basis, you'll recognize this as her mother, Nina, who's been in Japan for a pretty decent amount of time, trying to tend to her daughter but mostly unable to do anything but hope she'll wake up. Icarus and Galaxy-Eyes are also regular visitors.

Icarus is in his human form. Galaxy-Eyes not so much. The hospital has...kind of gotten used to the large dragon that hangs around one of the rooms at this point.]

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[Galaxy-Eyes tends to vanish before Onni arrives. Either leaving to go to the armory or SAI or the Barian's island, or just vanishing into Alexandra's subconscious before he makes it in the door. Thing about the Unyielding Spirit is it gives him a distinct scent. Galaxy-Eyes doesn't want to see him, doesn't want anything to develop, so she just leaves when she smells him coming.

Icarus on the other hand, doesn't have any such compulsions. He glances at Onni.]

...I'm gonna get some coffee. You want any?

[ He speaks up, a bit, his eyes a bit droopy until he hears that. ]

...Yeah. Two sugars, if you would? If not, s'fine.

Thanks, Icarus. 'preciate it. Truly.

[A couple moments later, he comes back with the coffee.]

...so, I gotta tell you somethin'.

I don't think it's good for you to keep comin' here and just staring into space every day.

[ He breaks eye contact with Icarus, staring down into the coffee. ]

Yeah. I know. Should probably stop coming altogether but. I dunno.

Guilty conscience, I suppose.

Edited 2016-09-01 08:40 (UTC)

Then maybe you should either talk about it or find something else to focus on.

You're not gonna do yourself any favors just standing there.

What do you want me to do here, Icarus? Throw a huge pity party? I'm sure I'm not the only one throwing that in your face. [ His gaze narrows, practically glaring into his cup of coffee. ]

...I'm not gonna lie and say I wasn't pissed at Alex. Still am. Still don't know if I'm chasing a lost bloody cause with how she acted. There's too many unknowns for me to feel good about any of it.

I didn't wanna bring it up cause I hate making this shit about me. I'd rather let it stew at this point than try and garner sympathy for the shit I pulled when Alex and I were fighting.

I'm not offering to give you a shoulder to cry on and tell you everything's alright. If we're gettin' real honest here, I don't care what your feelings about Alex actually are or what fights you two got into.

I'm saying that if you have something you need to say, say it. Either to me or to someone else or to the mirror. My best friend has been in a coma for the last three months because of the shit she decided to hold back and not tell anybody, and I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

[ There's a pause. He takes a deep breath, shuddering, almost, as if he's been holding back a dam bursting.]

...I don't know what to say. I've run it through my mind a thousand times. No matter what I say, no matter what actions I could have taken, I don't see how things ended up the way they did, or how they could have gotten any better.

I guess I just wish I had told her how much I looked up to her when I had the chance. Back before this all went wrong. Back before she went and threw herself on Rhongomyniad's spear.

...I dunno. Now it's all muddied up and I dunno how I feel anymore. I get this sick feelin' in the pit of my stomach, and I guess I thought-

[ He runs a hand through his hair, the stress piling onto his brow. ]

I guess I thought if I sat in here long enough, thought it all out, I'd figure out what went so damn wrong.

I hate this, Icarus. I don't know how I could have done anything for her. I feel like I'm still that damn brat with his mock fantasy gear coming in to the Academy, who can't do a damn thing.

Edited 2016-09-03 01:56 (UTC)

...

[Icarus lets out a breath.]

If you want to tell her something, tell her.

[He turns his head towards her.]

I dunno if she can hear anything the way she is. But if she can. I don't think hearing a familiar voice can hurt.

[ He pinches the bridge of his nose, sighing as he deflates in his chair, looking over at Alexandra. ]

...You were never in anyone's rear-view mirror, you doofus. If anything, we were the ones always trying to play catch-up. You spent all that time thinking you were so far behind everyone you couldn't see 'em, when most of us were just trying to keep pace with you.

Look. I get, in some way, the shit that had to be weighing on you mind. I'm not gonna say I've been through the same but - it's not fun, that feeling. And I should've been more receptive to what you were going through.

Instead I was a big dumb jackass because I was pissed off my friend was acting like a jerk.

So... I'm sorry. You may not forgive me - that's okay. Can't really say I'm in a spot to forgive the stunt you pulled with Rhongomyniad.

But I am sorry, and I'm gonna make it right. One way or another.